Saturday, January 24, 2009


Why cant life be simple? Why cant is just be?
Why is it I have to cry inside for noone else to see?
Why cant my life be mine instead of everyone elses?
Why do I carry so much guilt for things I have no control over?
Why cant the pain stop?
Why cant they see without me having to have a nervous breakdown?
Why cant someone hold me for a change and let me be the one to fall apart?
Why do I have to be so strong?
Why do I have to take care of everyone? Why when noone takes care of me?
Why do I feel so alone when I am surrounded by so many people?
Why do I have to make all the decisions?
Why cant I just sit back and let someone else take over?
Why do I feel like I am dying inside and noone cares?
Why cant I stop crying?

Sunday, January 18, 2009


Frozen inside like the ice outside
Dont know how to let it thaw
thawing means letting go, letting new life in
but fear keeps the ice in place
the ice is empty, cold, alone
wrapped in a cocoon of it, keepin the pain out
how do I let it melt
how do I let life in
how do I do all that and not lose what I have left?

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Your rainbow is intensely shaded orange, violet, and brown.


What is says about you: You are a strong person. You appreciate beauty and craftsmanship. You are patient and will keep trying to understand something until you've mastered it. You feel closer to people when you understand their imperfections.

Find the colors of your rainbow at

Friday, January 9, 2009


Feeling so scared, so lost and confused

trying to stay up but lost in the blues

things that seemed so simple yesterday

are the toughest to figure out today

emotion running everywhere,

wondering does anyone really care

crying on the inside, cant let anyone see,

cant just let all my emotions run free

Have to be a wife, mother, friend

pulled all over where will it end

will I ever be able to be just Carol Ann

Sunday, April 20, 2008


A time for renewel
A time for coming back to life
A time for letting go of those dark places that drag us down
A time for seeing our own reflections in the melting ice
A time to decide if what we see is really what we are or what others want us to be
A time to take stock in our lives,
A time to change if thats whats needed
A time for rebirth be it spiritual or emotional
A time to remember as the flowers start to grow that life goes on
A time to decide that as it goes on, do I stay put or do I move on with it..I hope each of you can move on...reflect on the good...let go of the bad...and let the beauty of spring come into your lives.....

written by C.A.B. 2005

Beautiful Sunset

Beautiful Sunset
Dyer Island Maine